Relationships: Breakups Aren’t Easy

It’s been about six months since we had broken up. We ended on good terms, remaining friends, still talk regularly, and we still care about each other. We both just know that we’re not meant to be in a relationship together.

About a month ago, I started crushing on another person; someone that she knows. I told her right away, out of respect so she wasn’t blindsided. She took it well, at least from what I could see. I hope it was as well as she showed.

Today she came to me, and basically returned the favor. She told me she’s talking to someone else, and didn’t want it to blindside me. I greatly appreciate her doing that. I think it’s a little easier that way.

Regardless, it’s all surreal to me right now. I love her, and want her to be happy, even if it’s with someone else. She definitely deserves better than me. I’ve told myself that we’re just not right for each other. And even though I’m crushing on someone else with whom I really hope a relationship is possible; part of me is like “wow, it’s really over.” Part of me wanted that door to always be there. But I can’t realistically expect that. That’d be selfish and wrong of me.

I wonder if anyone is ever truly over their past loves. My guess is no. I have a place in my heart for each of them. And while our time together has passed, the love remains. Wherever we go from here, I hope it’s better days for both of us.